there's this sudden feeling (or thought) that made me feel really anxious,lately. i don know what exactly, but something is amiss...

for sure, there are certain moments in our lives in which the swing of the pendulum is greatly felt. it could be a realization for the better/worse, a difficulty in grabbing reality, or even the fear of the future's great unknown. well, in my case. i think its the first one that has been bothering me for quite awhile. a realization that made a part of the murky sea a bit clearer now, at least.

standing between two absolutely contradicitng universe is'nt a simple thing to do... it could've been the reason for my being-so-radical...

school-house...school-house...school-house...these are two totally different worlds.
school......it is a world for those who never gets contented with the accepted ways, those who despise the old as being stale, constantly welcoming inovation, like worldlings who are always chasing after the latest fashion.[St. Basil the Great]...and my house (home as you may call it) is a world stranded in time. a world of conservatism... having them both as my playground requires a lot. the shcool requires a different mico, a young mico, or should i say the lighter side of mico and on the other hand, my HOME, requires the act-as-old(mature)-as-you-can mode... i hate the fact that "sometimes", this concept is makin me (somehow) act as someone that i'm really not. Its makin my life weighty. but through this, i've gotten to realize that such concept is not makin any other else fooled,but me. at least now im aware of it...just live with it!!!

i'd rather be hated for who I really am, than to be loved for being sombody else....

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got this somewhere...

kewl!!! (: